Archive for September, 2009
A new update…
Not much to report, I’m so happy to say. Considering where we have been this year, I’ll take it. *smile*
Ryan has been suffering from headaches. If he will remember to wear his glasses, I think that will help them out. He only needs them for reading, so I can see why he would forget them. Troy did take him to the doctor yesterday (he had suffered from a headache the week before we found out he had cancer – I was freaking out), and we did find out officially that Ryan’s scan’s in August were clear. PRAISE GOD! The next set of scans should be in November.
The kids are doing great in school. I have seen the progress reports for this nine weeks, and the grades were good. It seems the kids have bounced back into a normal routine, which is great!
I have been tons better since I dumped my concerns on here the last time. Since then, I have started a personal journal that I can go back and read in the years to come. This accomplishes two things: 1 – I have a place to dump my emotions without having everyone worrying about me and 2 – I have a something that when I go back and read later, I can have a great laugh at myself. Sometimes, laughter is the best medicine. *smile* I have also started substitute teaching at the kids school. So far I have had a blast doing this, but a note to myself – make sure to wear more comfortable shoes. HA!
Everyone have a blessed day!
Normal… what’s that?
As I sit here this morning, Troy has taken the kids to school and gone to work for the day. I’m getting ready to go to the nursery at church to watch the babies so their mothers can go to a Bible Study. And while sitting here, I wonder what normal is. For the most of the first half of the year, it was getting up, getting Bryce to school and Deanna to pre-school, going to the hospital to sit with Ryan while Troy went to work. If it was my night to stay, I would be at the hospital for around 48 hours straight only to come home to spend time with Bryce and Deanna, get up the next day and do it all over again. It’s hard to believe that now Ryan is back to normal – the only way you can tell he’s been sick is his hair is very short. Every day it gets longer and it looks like it is starting to curl at the ends. Only time will tell on that.
So what is normal now? I have no idea. I try to get housework completed and laundry done, but to be honest I don’t want to do it. It seems I have gone and gone and all I want to do is sit down and do absolutely nothing. And that’s not good health wise for me right now. I’m still on medications for high blood pressure and I really need to get this extra weight off. UGH! Normal it seems right now is getting up, getting the kids up and in the shower and ready for school, getting Troy up so he can go to work, and doing housework. And I will admit that I fail every day at the housework part.
I’m trying to get out of the house more – like I said earlier, I work at the nursery on Tuesday mornings and Wednesday nights. I go to Scouts on Tuesday nights (we started last week). I’m going to a training class on Thursday (more at a later date). But it seems hard to go.
While Ryan was in the hospital so much, I had a girl’s night out with a couple of friends. The one question that still sticks in my mind is “How does all this feel?” My answer: “I will disconnected from every thing – my life revolves around the hospital. etc.” Now, I’m trying to get back into the swing of things, and I’m not sure how. I know that God is with me and provides me strength when I need it. I have to remember that all the time because He has been with us through it all.
Please forgive my ramblings this morning. It seems, to me at least, that this is the only place I can be honest with myself. Thank you for listening to a woman who has had a very hard year.
God bless you all!
And the year continues….
Well… school year is going great for all the kids. Deanna is loving Kindergarten. Bryce is enjoying first grade. Ryan is really glad to be back in school. All of them seem to be back into the swing of things, and now I’m left trying to figure out what normal is.
With the H1N1 flu going around, it was bound to hit in our house. And yesterday, Ryan was diagnosed with it. When it rains it pours, right? We are all on Tami-flu to make sure no one else in the house gets it. I just hate for Ryan to have been the one to get it. But it’s like I told a friend on Facebook, I’m just thankful he’s here today to get sick, if you know what I mean. In February we didn’t know if he would live through the first weekend, and now as I update the blog, he is laying on the love-seat (where all the kids go when they’re sick) sleeping and it does my heart good. Of course, at 4:30 this morning he came into the bedroom asking for Troy. It was bittersweet for me as I was the one he wanted during all the hospital stays, but Troy was on cloud nine (or as close as he could get on it that early in the morning). With the long weekend coming up, hopefully Ryan can kick this bug and be back to his old self quicker.
Everyone have a great Labor Day weekend and eat some at cookouts (if you’re going) for us. HA! We love all of you!