Archive for July, 2009
Life’s Not Fair…
I know it has been a while between posts. I am so very, very, VERY thankful to say that is because our life has settled down a bit. Even the “big” things that are happening in our life seem trivial compared to the events that started in February. It’s all about perspective and boy has ours changed!
I’m in one of those introspective moods, so bear with me. 
Life is not fair. We have all heard it and know it from experience. Life is just not fair, but is our perspective on this sentiment correct? What is fair? This is a question I have asked myself recently.
Life is NOT fair. With our situation, dealing with Ryan’s cancer, we received a… gift. Our family received an opportunity to learn valuable lessons. We so often did not take time with our children due to other “urgent” but less “important” matters. Anyone hear “Cat’s in the Cradle” playing in the background? We are far from a model family but I can assure you we have been changed. As I said in the first post after finding out that Ryan had cancer, none of us is guaranteed another minute in this world. I understand that more today than ever.
Life is NOT fair. In spite of our difficulties, we are blessed beyond degree. I know it sounds “easy” to say that now compared to where we were only weeks ago. Families crossed our path that had a much different outcome. Life is not fair, we get more time with our son. Why us and not others? How can we help others through what we know is such a difficult situation? Prayer, outreach, fundraisers, volunteer work, all will be a focus for us.
As you can see, life has NOT been fair to us recently.
As for Ryan’s status, he is doing well. His stamina is returning, but he still tires more quickly than he used to. He is excited about playing fall baseball and getting back to school. His hair is growing back too, looks like it will be blond?!? I will post a picture when he gets back from visiting our family in TN (and yes he is being spoiled rotten along with Bryce, Deanna AND Victoria!) A full round of scans are scheduled for early August.
May God bless you this day!
Musings by Vic
Considering that June 15 was the day we heard the word REMISSION, we haven’t posted a lot. I’m sorry about that, but no news is good news, right? Ryan has been doing fine. He still doesn’t have all of his stamina back, but he is working on it. He wants to play baseball in the fall and can’t wait to go to Tennessee to see all of his cousins this month. Thanks, everyone, for your continued prayers. Our lives have been changed forever by this.
Sitting here taking a break from some much needed decluttering in my house, I am reflecting over the past 6 months. Really, this year has been nightmarish. No one wants to hear their child has cancer – to me, it’s one of the worst things to hear. But I have looked at this as a learning experience. It’s opened my eyes to my shortcomings as a mother, and I thank God for that.
Right now, the hardest part is getting back to our lives. Trying to remember how to clean house, do laundry, play, laugh, go out with friends – all of this I’m having to learn again. And it’s hard, I’m sad to say. But I’m hopeful that in time, I can get back to my old schedule and relax. That’s hard to do at the moment as my house has about 8 years of stuff that has collected. I’m praying I can get it finished this week – started last week, and let me tell you, I don’t think our garbage men are happy with us. 
Everyone have a blessed day! We are finally getting some much needed rain.