4/28 report
The past couple of days have been emotionally draining for me. I have heard lots of things from Ryan: “I don’t want to be here; I want to stay at home; Why did I get this cancer?; I miss my family, my friends, my cousins.” And he cried a lot today. All I could do was try to be understanding, but that was hard. As a mother, all I want to do is fix it, but I can’t. All I can do is to be there and try to make him comfortable. I caught Troy online today, and he came to the hospital to take over. Troy and Ryan talked about it, and I’m going in later tomorrow than first thing in the morning just to get a break. I need the break emotionally tomorrow morning. I keep hanging onto the fact that this is the last scheduled round Ryan has.
On a side note, I got a copy of the picture from the Relay for life. The lady in the big blue wig is Ryan’s teacher, Ms. O’Mire. You can really see how much fun Ryan was having at the relay.
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GREAT picture! I am sorry y’all are all hurting. I want so badly to say something wise or whatever, but I know words won’t fix it. I am glad that we all share the same Savior and our hope is in Him… You know we are praying for y’all.
I’m glad Troy is able to give you an emotional break. You are such a good Mom. I can only imagine how difficult it is for you. Of course you want to fix it, but being there for him is helping. Taking a break to care for yourself is a big help, too. I know it doesn’t feel like it, but you’re doing the right things. Take gentle care of yourself.
I love his big smile in that pic!
LOVE the photo!!! I am sorry to hear you all are having such a tough time. I know you are all ready to be home again. I think of you daily.
love those smiles
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